The ups and Downs of things

If you know me you know I am not a risk taker at all. I like my "normal" more than routine life. I like for things to be even and smooth. I do not like surprises, I like to be in the "know" of all things that may involve me. So to know that you know that on a daily basis this is not how my life goes. I am married to my polar opposite. He is in fact, a live by the seat of his pants, kinda guy. Rickey loves to make life as exciting as possible. He doesn't like to plan, has no concept of time and loves with all of his being.

I wanted to start this blog as a ministry and an outlet. I have seen from friends and family how this has been therapeutic and helpful. I have also learned alot about the people I love through reading their thoughts and feelings.

That being said, this is my outlet on dealing with a new area of my life with my husband. I am married to a newly diagnosed bipolar and manic depressive man. We are both learning a lot from this new part of our life. Understand please that I will use this as and outlet for my feelings and stories of our day to day life, but know    this is new to both of us and we don't know all about this area of illness.

I met Rickey 17 years ago in high school. He is a very handsome man, with beautiful blue eyes and an awesome smile. We dated all through high school and got married a year after I graduated. We have been married for 13 years and have 3 kids. We love each other very much, thank goodness, our love for each other is what keeps us going so much of the time. We love our kids with all our hearts, but know that if we don't invest in each other we are not doing our kids a bit of good. So we work really hard on our relationship and spend tons of time together, its what we do and who we are.

In March of 2012 Rickey went through one of the worst days of his life. He called me at whits end, not knowing what to do or where to go. Through talking and prayer and lots of help from family and friends we took him and admitted him to a behavioral (mental) hospital. He stayed there for the longest 5 days of our lives. There he received his diagnosis and some very good life long lessons on how to cope with his new illness. After that he was put on meds to help with his chemical imbalance. He sees his doctor once a month and has his meds adjusted if need be.

This blog is mostly for me to talk out his highs and lows and also to help those who need understanding into his life. I was prompted to write this after wanting a place to blow off steam and wanted others to understand  a little bit more into the life a bipolar man.