All good things...

Well I am writing soon than I had hoped. I try not to write until I need an out let and that time has come too soon.

We've had almost a constant of good days. Yes a moment or two of "downs", but heck I really can't complain. Yesterday started some what of a downward spiral. He had a hard day being alone at the house while we were all at school and work. He perked up when we got home and was back to himself by bed time. Today I was hoping for more of  at least yesterday. Alas it isn't so( I had to put that in there, it sounds funny). He was home alone again today, he ate a lot of food and layed around all day and as soon as I got home after 3 he went to bed and is stil there at 7pm. I told the kids he is having a sad day. That's really what it is right now. My only prayer is that he'll get out of bed tomorrow for his monthly doctors appointment.

I know things will pick back up, heck Mr B was glad things were going well but told me that he'd be hitting bottom soon. Darn it!! I do praise God things are better! We'll make it through this valley and find happy again soon.

By the way, he was approved for disability!! We are praising God for this too. His provision is always perfect.

18 years

Well it's about time to blog again, so here I am. I guess you can tell by the time in between blogs that things are getting better. When I first started it was almost a daily blog b/c I needed to vent about all the hard times. Well I can say the "hard times" are fewer between . Praise our Lord!!!! Thank you for your continued prayers.

So now to address my title. R and I found one of our favorite movies, Gone in 60 seconds, and we got to talking about when it was made and then then got on the subject of how long we've been together. We started dating in 1995. That's 18 years people!! I am not old enough(in my mind) to be with him 18 years. YEARS.

If you know me I have always had an issue with age. My 30th birthday about killed me. I would live 17 if I could, that was a great age.

Well I figured tonight that knowing that we've been together 18 years, is causing a strong fight in me for our marriage. When times get hard, I am reminded what all we've made it through in the past. My God is so good. He heals hurts and restores relationships. Just food for thought.