A great gift!

Today is my birthday! I have always had good days on my birthdays. I have a great family who makes me feel special. This year was a little better!!

We were getting ready for church this morning and R was running to wal mart before the kids and I left to go to church. He had something he wanted me to give our friend Cherry and he really wanted to get it before I left. He got home just in time for me to leave. Gave me my funny birthday card and something that means more than any other gift I have gotten my entire life! To some it may not sound like much but to me and those who know this disease or are close to us will really appreciate what he did.

Rickey gave me my card and told me he was going to try church this morning for my birthday!!! It touched my heart! He hasn't been able to deal with lots of people and has social phobia, so he hasn't been many public places or been to church in over six weeks!! I was an emotional basket case to say the least.

He was nervous, he felt like he was going to have a heart attack and had a hard time breathing, all for me. He went into the church, went straight to a "safe" place, to our friend Bro Mack's office. Now he didn't come out of that office until church was about over but he came with me! He was able to see some people. I understand better what he is really dealing with.

I have a hard time understanding social phobia just because I have really never had to deal with it until now. To see  what I know as a strong man, be so weak with fear, it's hard for me to understand. I really get what a gift he gave me today. I won't soon forget it. He spent nearly a month working him self up to doing this for me. It may be another six weeks before he can do it again but boy am I proud of him!

Social phobias should never be taken lightly. Thay should be worked on, not letting the person hide away because they can't handel people. Just give these people a chance and encourage them, give them support and they'll make their way! Rickey is trying and for that I am so very proud of him. There is one step forward.